its been a warm and sultry stay so far...the beaches hold such promise and temptation..hope with trepidation...it all feels eerily dream like...yet somewhere in the abyss of my head i know this is no dream...i have finally moved out of that one city where i lived the past nine years and couldn't wait to get out of in the recent past...now though the shift has happened its bittersweet...i have finally understood the sense of being settled by unsettling myself...ironic but i have come to believe that there would have been no other way for me to realize what i have right now...i am out of place, most definitely, but surprisingly i am still me...i went ahead and bought a pair of bathroom slippers and another to be worn at home from Bata...not that big a deal if you just skip the bit where i forgot to metion that both the pairs are meant for men...i just think shoemakers are oh-so-not-considerate when it comes to women's footwear...so narrow and bloody shitty painful...and it all sells in the name of fashion...or maybe God made a small mistake while sending me 'downstairs' that i got the wrong body...i have no idea and considering the fact that dwelling on this matter would only make ma issues worse am not even going there...buddha bar's dejavu surprisingly does exactly the opposite of what it calls itself...there is no sense of oh i already knew this instead this weird kind of happiness and excitement that there is something good out there waitng for me to come and get it...after a really really long time i have started taking interest in the opposite sex...but the desired reaction/result is quite the opposite i must say...been so long been outta practice...but yea hopefully shall be back in the dating arena soon...a new city though it is the place of my birth...two things can happen to one in such a scenario...either the new city excites and inspires you enough to go and explore it or you have left such a great group of friends and family back home (the city you have come to know as your home) and this one dulls in comparison...i just wish i get the dough soon enough to go with the first option...but how does one make new friends?i have always sucked at it...challenges and more challenges...but none i think i like...and as usual am sure i have written something that might never make much sense to me either...but its fun...the fewer the readers happier is this confuzd jughead folks!!!!hasta luega mi amores
