another year is about to end in the two hours sixteen minutes. another year that has passed by with no significant change that would later make me want to reminisce the year. i jumped from one agency to another to carry on the same job that i started with and also hated the most. i got to re-connect with friends i had lost over the years. i made some new ones and soaked in the glory of old ones like wine. i made some new ones as well. overall it seems to be a decent year. and yet there's this void that does not allow me to be content.
i want to write so much, yet the conscience within me is tying me down with heart wrenching chords not allowing me to express myself. i don't think i can on a public medium nor do i think i ever will. growing old i never knew was this perennial board exams that one always had to give. writing has always come easily to me but i suddenly find myself inarticulate and intellectually challenged.
the coming year seems to be approaching near and very fast. it's this baby that is not ready to wait its full term but is all eager and enthusiastic to enter this world. if only it knew what it has to witness. hey hold on!!!!!if i want to have a blast the coming year, i need to be positive right.
yeah now thats very important. i do believe that the coming year also holds a lot of expressed and unspoken promises. if all goes well i should be able to realize my dream. i should be able to get my footing somewhere in the process of defining myself and my identity. this 'about to be past' year has definitely brought moments f joy and moments of sadness. the one thing that i can never get over is ma loss of simba. without him i feel somewhat bereft. he knows as much as i do that we both are there for each other and that neither will forget the other ever. 'i miss you love. may your soul rest in peace my baby ;(.'
just a couple of more hours for me to get into the next train in the journey of my life. i dunno how many stops are we going to stop at this time. some bring happiness and the others something morose. overall it is truly a journey of life. i think now am all ready emotionally to experience yet another roller-coaster ride.
so here's to one and all who have read my blog and encourage me to write more and who really care for me and love me!!!!!!thanks a million!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
have a very very very happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 comment:
ok..a quick comment before i start paying attention in class :)
in response to ..."and yet there's this void that does not allow me to be content."
i think maybe we addressing a void that really isn't there. there's this line that comes to me.. for everything u think you've gained u've lost something; for everything u think u've lost u've gained something too..(sound like me? :) although i remember reading it someplace) so guess its your choice whether u see 'something' (positive) there or a 'void' there, or maybe - u know - stuff it in with something fragrant. wallowing in self pity is good (like i do) but feeling a void there (again, like i do :)) is not.
wokays, u have to see this guy here (my prof) jumping up n down as he teaches. guess his mind doesnt run if he doesn't. bye then.
oh yea. happy new ears to u too. :) and keep writing.
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