what was i thinking?or more like i just wasn't thinking...ma previous post...i haven't been able to go through it myself...seriously i wonder what kinda torture i must have put the very few of you who visit ma blog and try and read ma rambling...it started off as something and it ended up as something completely different that reads weird and pathetic even to me...so what went wrong?i dunno...i guess it's just the usual confused me who decided to go on a roller coaster ride of self pity...
the above five lines were written god knows when and here i am back to write some more...and once again i have successfully gone blank...that word reminds me...i was once asked to talk for two whole minutes on 'blank white paper'...now don't even ask me what i said...i have no idea...it was so surreal because the topic made lil sense to me and add to that a triple serving of heavy duty nervousness and tension...guess i was more focused on trying to reduce the rate at which i was sweating and hoping as hell that my carefully washed hair didn't go limp with all the sweet sweating that was happening...i guess madonna's current tour is called 'sticky and sweet' or 'sweet and sticky'...wait lemme find out....
got it...it's the sticky and sweet tour...some info just incase u wanna read about it...
anyways why was i talking abt her?yea i remember...she came up with that in 2008 at 50...guess wat?i didnt do the whole tour thing but i already knew what it was to be sticky and sweet at 19 i guess...and what was worse about the whole practical examination?here i was supposed to exhibit my skills at verbalising and articulating ambiguous ideas...but the only kind of articulation that happened was in my head and that too it was totally visual...coming from the land of all kinds of wood---i mean bollywood, tollywood, kollywood, tollywood and sandalwood (nah not that expensive aromatic tree bark, instead the kannada film industry is what am referring to), there i was visualizing yards and yards of white fabric falling around me...soft and fluid...almost flowing around me...this divine beauty created by just yards of fabric flowing and falling around...it was so beautiful that for once i was speechless because i had created beauty in the true sense of the term (at least for me) in my head and not speechless because i was intellectually challenged you know!!!
as much as i would like to believe that one day i would be able to recreate the beauty that created that hot and sticky and of course sweet afternoon, i have two fears that kinda stop it from happening...hmmm i dont think they are fears actually...but anyways one is no way in the world am i gonna have so much money to get that much fabric flowing around me..second i dont know if i would be able to achieve the perfection in realizing it...i dont want to for the life of me spoil the beauty i still hold as a mental picture...
now am thinking what to think?this country music am listening to is calming ma otherwise fraught ANS (autonomic nervous system, there u go with some info on science)...music is miraculous when it comes to me and ma moods...i put cats to shame when it comes to being tempramental and music is the only thing that can ever get to me...man i knw what to write in ma next post...wait n watch out for info on how life is when u are a human who puts cat to shame...no am not -----------...wanna know wat?click on it, duh!!!!until then------------
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